I found this liturgical prayer the morning after Kyle had been in the hospital all night with what I thought was a DVT (Dec 12/2023). I knew it was something that could quickly become very serious & was searching for a prayer that would help settle my soul.

I was first introduced to liturgical prayers, and this book: Every Moment Holy, while struggling with depression in 2020. I loved the aspect of treating everyday moments as sacred times to pray. It became a treasured book I reached for often.

So, when faced with the fear of unknown with Kyle’s health, it was habit that had me opening this book.

After praying through the prayer myself, I posted it on instagram, asking for our community to pray the words alongside me. I truly believe that there is power in prayer. I know it. We’ve felt it so strongly this past 4 months.

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The prayer is this:

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You designed our bodies, O Lord, with a wondrous capacity for regeneration and healing. You give wisdom and knowledge and skill to those who by long training in their professions learn to diagnose and treat ailments of the body. And you, by your Spirit, sometimes effect miracles of healing that even the most skilled of practitioners cannot duplicate.

Today, we ask O Lord, that by all means your care towards Kyle would be manifest, for I am utterly dependent upon you. Give to Kyle’s body immunity and vitality to recover. Give him strength and health to resist complications. Give the medical providers wisdom, skill & insight. And by your Spirit, transcend even what body and medicine at their best might do. Where it is needed, bring the healing of your own touch to bear in his mortal frame.

Be merciful, O God.

Show your goodness to Kyle, and to those who share our concern. Be now his physician, his mender, his healer. Even in the midst of this illness, let us rest in you.

We acknowledge our fears at the possibility of outcomes we cannot control.

O God, unshaken by any circumstance,
be now my rock and refuge.

Still our racing thoughts.
Speak peace to this gale-storm of our insecurities. In the midst of our concerns, give us grace to receive without bitterness the presence and support of friends who, might utter unhelpful things.

Give us also grace to trust, to rest our trepidations in you, for your purposes and your presence transcend all possible outcomes.

Whether the end result of this illness brings news that is good, bad, or uncertain, nothing that is essential or eternal will have changed;

Our great hope is secure. Let us rest in that.
At the end of the day, Kyle is still your child, utterly dependent on you, utterly loved by you. At the end of this day, Kyle’s life with yet be hidden with Christ, even as it now is. He will remain an heir. to the promise that this imperfect, mortal body, though it faces temporary decline, will one day be swallowed up in a glorious immortality.

We pray for good outcomes, O Lord.

We ask for good outcomes, pleading that you would be mindful of our mortal frailties,
but we know that regardless of the tidings to come, you are tender and present and sovereign over all circumstance,
and what is more, you love us fiercely and eternally.

Therefore, we trust you to lead Kyle well along the paths of wild and perilous country. You are his shepherd. This day will hold no surprises for you. Let us rest in that.

Amen.